Insecurity

I saw her,
And I knew she saw me.
Our eyes caught path,
So I knew she saw me.
Words wasn't expressed,
But some how feelings developed.
I had the perfect time to approach her,
I had more than enough time to capture her time.
For once in life,
With out begging,
Time fell on my hands.
For once in life,
Time was on my side.
But fear took over all my hearts plans.
I thought I had this,
Thought I'd go to her,
Resemble more than any guy she's ever seen.
Present myself as a gentleman,
A man sent to throne her,
And pamper her.
Not a players mentality,
But a loving hearts needs to please.
I didn't want to waste her time with lies.
I really wanted to convey my heart to her.
I wanted to show her I thought of her.
Not with my head that grows with uncertainty,
But with my head that continues to replay her image.
Unless you haven't noticed,
My fears allowed her to slip out my world.
Faith allowed us to cross paths,
And if meant to be we'll cross over that path once again.
But just like alot of people in the world,
I can't wait.
I thought I'd ask time to speed up faiths abilities,
Thought time was on my side.
Time was on my hand,
Time agreed to stand still to bask within her presence before.
But now that I let her leave,
Now that I allowed my fears to control me,
Time doesn't shed a care for me.
Not an ounce of care,
And concern.
Sad thing is,
I understand its reasons.
I fell victim to my fears
Countless times.
I'm vulnerable to my fears.
*HMPH*
Maybe some day I'll overcome this.
God willing some day soon,
I won't be holdin my tongue,
Bite'n my lips,
Concealing my thoughts and emotions.
Some day soon,
Fear of rejection and others that follow,
Won't hold me back.
Maybe that'll be the day she comes back.