Randomosity #33

I'm happier with out you
But I can't live with out you
Love is interfering with my mental thinking
So I'm more than confused
When it comes to you
I'm lost in a maze
And every turn is a picture of you
Every right way leads to you
But every wrong turn ends with you
Do you see just how confused I am now?
Do you realize the extent you've taken me?
Broken hearted isn't what I'll say
Greatfully departed aint even the tip of this relationship
Or the end of it.
I love you
But we need to part ways
I hate you
But I don't want you to ever leave me
I'm just confused
And lost because of you.

FROM A CHILD

You never know the struggles of the world
Until you have a child to support.
The world is no longer in your eyes when you look in the mirror.
The world is no longer on your shoulders when things get heavy.
Your world
Is in the eyes of that child.
All that you've dreamt of
Or desperately needed
Lies within that child.
A father will bare the world for his kids.
But a mothers love
Is uncompatable.
A mothers love for her child
Is second after the lord above.
A mother will go from heaven to hell,
In all ways possible
Just to make ends meet for they're child.
This world we live in
Isn't built on dreams for ones self.
Its built on the dreams
Of making things better for your kids,
And mines.
We work hard to make life better for them.
We strive even harder to make they're future seem that much brighter.


As kids we never seem to acknowledge our parents love.
As kids we feel
Over whelmed
And over protected
With this love given unto us.
But the type of love our parents grace us with.
Is the type of love we needed.
Its the type of love we need to keep us grounded.

I'm not writing this as a parent.
I'm writing this as a loved child finally acknowledging the love my
parents give to me.

Randomosity #39

*SIGH*
Let's just dive into what my hearts feeling.
I don't wanna beat around the bush.
I don't wanna hold back
Or prolong things within me that needs to be put out.
I gotta let them out.
I'm a hold her hands
And stare in her eyes.
As I stutteringly spur things out.
Words that's only showing my true feelings for her.
Each word that escapes my mouth
Is carried out by the many butterflies she manages to fill me up with.
That proves that my words being said,
Truely exist within me.
I can't keep them locked in any more.
I can't overlook these feelings that continue to pile up.
Words unspoken
Are truths neglected.
Truths neglected
Is false actions expressed.

Randomosity #37

I don't wanna rent you
Or own you.
But I do wanna be the one that holds every bit of info about you.
I wanna know your in's and out's
Good's and bad's.
Others will judge you for your flaws.
But I'll greatly treasure you despite your many wrongs.
There's nuttin you can tell me
That'll ever turn me away from you.
Extra sets of toes and fingers,
Misplaced or mishaped body parts,
Crazy pass,
And a police report.
What ever you can come up with
I'll stand by your side despite of it.
My words won't make since
Unless you accept my feelings.
Until you acknowledge my trust and honesty.
I feel mushy writing this
But I'm starting to feel comfortable with you.
The more I know about you
And the more you know about me
Will set me at ease around you.
So we'll take our time
And explore each others mind.

HMPH!

She told me
Since its raining today.
She'll go outside
And cry her heart out.
She'll let the rain cover her tears
As her pain is finally released.
Rainy days set her at ease
Cause no one can see the pain she's been holding in that's now
finally bein released.
She let's it pile up too much.
She holds back her emotions
And refuse to let those around her in.
She's blocking the world out her life.
She barricaded her self from everyone.
So for her to shed a tear in the rain.
Is a safe bet.
Cause its the safest way for her to let go.
Let go of all the pain she feels.
Let go of all the stress she feels.
Let go of all things in plain sight.


Little did you all know,
This she
Was really a he.
Not a transgender.
Just a lil bit of hidden identity.
Cover up the truth
With a bit of reality.
Cause really,
What guy you know
Goes out in the rain to shed a tear.
So this was a cover up.
All cause
A guy can't expose his sensitivity.
Cause he fear he won't be seen
Nor accepted as a man.
So he's forced to believe that his weakness shouldn't be exposed.
His pain,
His agony,
Shouldn't be visible to those around him.
Shouldn't be seen
Nor shown to those who love him.