Alienated

Things felt different.
The friendship felt iffy.
Well truth is
The friendship has all ways felt that way.
But now,
It feels like were in a new path
Walking farther away.
But its a friendship,
So It was bound to happen.
It was bound to lead this way.
But I was curious as to why.
So I had to ask her.
What's gone wrong with us?
What's gone sour in this friendship?
Simple questions I thought would be easy to answer.
I didn't know what I said wrong.
But she turned and tears started to fall.
Puzzled before
But now far fetched
And desperate for an answer.
I stood there in complete confusion.
She started to speak.
Regardless of the tears she had flowing out.

She said,
Its just that.
I love you like crazy
And I've wanted nuttin more than to be that queen by your side.
I've wanted to be your queen or even your ride or die chick.
ANYONE!
Just be by your side.
I've told you that.
I've expressed that soo many times to you.
But you just continue to push my feelings out.
You continue to push my heart out.
I painfully held my heart hoping that one day,
Someday soon.
You'd finally accept it.
But that's all came to a crashing halt.
It all came to a destructive explosion to my heart.
That day you introduced me to your new girlfriend.
Since than,
I've felt as if love betrayed me.
I felt as tho my heart just ceased to exist.
It had nuttin to beat for
And crying was the only way I could release the pain.
I'm sorry for the tears.
I'm sorry for the distance being placed between us.
But its what's best for me.
Cause you never seemed to see what was best for me.
Which was you.
But now I've got to let go.
And adjust to it all.